Saturday Morning

MRI scan came out find last thursday. My pituary glens are at normal size and not swelling THANK GOD. But still i need to take some sort of medication to supress my high prolactin in my body so that i could lead a normal life and conceive if i want to later in the future. Today am going to the doctor to see what he says and i suppose take more blood samples. I hope that will be fine.....

I couldnt believe that its already 2weeks since i came back and time past really fast when im back in kl. Soon my result is gonna be out and thanks to aileen we all thought is this monday my result is out hahaha....but the actual one is on the 11th of december. Talk to my bestie aileen yesterday night and its been such a long time since ive talk to her and i miss her......We chatted almost 2 hours last night filled with laughter, sadness and jeritan....hahahaha.....Its so weird that we're all in different places and yet we still communicate as if we're next to each other. Before aileen called me, i called wk to talk to him about the house inspection. Last night i broke the news about my health problem to the both of them. They so kancheong over me and keep saying all the comforting words to me and then i realise.......I have 2 most beautiful friends on earth that cares for me and takes care of me.....I love them to pieces. Cant wait for them to be back so we can become gila again hahaha.....

Anyways, i hope everyone is doing fine and busy preparing for xmas. Im gonna do my xmas shopping in melbourne la if i get to go for graduation this year around. Coz now branded stuff is so eiffing cheap that it hurts me that im back in KL....hahahahah

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

Everythings alright.

Ive been pretty busy around in KL lately that i didnt had time to post. Have not been in the best of shape since i came back and ive been to hospital in and out this week. Thats becoz i got this shit sickness. What is it you ask?.....Is that my hormones are shooting the roof and its an excessive prolactif or something like that which usually only occurs if your pregnant or just after giving birth. This is really damn shitty as i am not pregnant nor i had any abortion or miscarriage b4 so this is very unusual to have the hormones reaching very very high lvl in my body causing me to lactate like a cow.

So yea been in and out the hospital taking blood test, ultra sounds and so on and so forth. Doctor said that it should subside in the next few days and he said there is no need to worry. He said it must have something to stimulate it in order for me to reach such a high hormone and its unbalance causing it to lactate. Its pretty scarry to the fact that i think im a cow now coz im not pregnant and im lactating.

At this point i wish i was pregnant. Sigh....its a wonder how our body systems works and i hope this nonsense will go away soon. Apart of me lactating like a cow, my boobies are huge and the soreness and painess of it has subside compare to last sunday when i realise it. In other hand boyfren told me that no wonder he felt weird that my boobies are extremely huge and bigger than normal. But as of now, no need to worry....the soreness and all has subsided, not fully but its getting better since last sunday.

On the other hand, DO NOT BUY LV IN KL....i repeat DO NOT BUY LV IN KL....Why? Becoz aussie is sooo much more cheaper by Rm 1 k okay!......I went in the store today to get my hands on the damier bag i saw but it was rm1k diff and that also havent deduct GST u know...so imagine....ppl please go to AUZ to buy ur branded goods. Even Chanel is cheaper in melbourne, but sad thing is i dun wanna waste my time in melbourne chanel becoz its always out of stock!. So KL is good for me as far as chanel goes....Am waiting for my SA to call me coz she said chanel gonna have VIP sales soon and i cant wait.

Other than that...things are exiting for me....Food, people, HOME....ahhhh......

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

On my way home.

Im sitting here in the first class lounge and finally the wireless can be used
Im actually about 9hours away from my home sweet home.
But this time things would be different I know.
My feeling right now is not the same as before. Getting exited, thinking whats the first thing i should say to my bf and hugging him. But i know that is different now...

Im not that exited this time around to come back, instead i was thinking to defer my flight home to end of december. I didnt pack till the very last minute of my flight, I left my house in a mess and still have the thought that i still got one more day b4 i fly back home. Needless to say Im not as keen as i was b4 in flying back.

But i know i cant hide in melbourne forever.
I know things would still be there and the truth is still there just waiting for me to solve it.

I dun wanna solve it, I dun wan arguments, I dun wan to face reality, I dun wan to fall out of love. I just want everything as it was before.

I just want all of this to go away.

I do not know how I will face him and I dont even know how I would feel when he touches me. I miss him alot and I was waiting for this very day to arrive. But somehow I wish that I dun have to go back to KL and face the drama in my life. Each time I think i did the right move then something just struck my head and I cant get over through my system that he did cheat on me.

This is like a repeating chapter in my life and at this point Im vunarable and I dunno if this time around I would make the right choice. Or would I just repeat history again and let things to hurt me once again like it did before? I wish I had an answer for my decisions now or a sign or something telling me to make the right and correct decision without regretting.

The last thing I want to do is regret and hate the person i once loved.

I wish for an answer to appear in front of me.

I cant sleep nor I can eat. Each time I close my eyes...A vision of him holding someone elses hand was just unexceptable and I thought he would be the one person on earth will never do that to me. But i was wrong.

God if only you showed me a sign telling me what decision to make.

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

If I were a Boy

If i were a boy,
Even just for a day,
I'l roll out of bed in the morning and throw wat i wanted and go.

f I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man.

I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I’d forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you’re just a boy
You don’t understand

How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man

You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you’ve taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed

But you’re just a boy

Lyrics by: Beyonce


YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

I have nothing

I dont know if this time your for real to me.

You said that you'll change and for now you wanna do your best to prove me that you love me.
But in just a few days after the incident, you pretend as if nothing ever happen and you shouldnt be punish for your sins and you rather fight with me over your fren party.
Am I not important at all in your life?
Am I just being a fool thinking that you loved me and you will change?
Or was it all a pretend talk to me so that i would forget everything?

I want to be loved and I want you to meant what you said and promise to me. In just a few days you already act as if nothing happen, how then will you assure me that you will do all ur might in the future to not hurt me and gain back my trust? I really want this to work out and I want to forgive you, but for your actions and words makes me sad and I dunno what to do anymore.

C.H.A.N.E.L Madness

I swear to be a BIG fan of CHANEL from now on. My biggest resolution for 2009 is to buy as many Chanel bags and things as I can.....hehe....Today mum finally agree to buy a CHANEL bag and hehe....I know i can pinjam...and the conversion is sooo cheap this days but even so Chanel has been increasing their price like nuts and its gonna increase again b4 the cruise collection comes in this december.


She bought a jumbo caviar flap and its soo nice...Ashley tinsdale has one and now I can pinjam my mums hehehe....I cant wait to see mine back home....haih....3 more days.....

On the other hand, me and wk went to try this restaurant called LAKSA KING at flemington and it was sooo good.....I mean you cant have this nice shit in CBD but this is too good and it makes u feel like ur back in Malaysia......Everything taste nice but if not it was abit more spicy and less coconut. We ate lobak aswell....waaa damn shiok hehe

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-Sam-

Whats left of me

"You had everyone fool, You had me fooled. I cant keep up with your constant lies."

Something Random

Im sick of studying and i just want to get it done and over with.....

I went out to do this working with children check application so that im an appointed guardian to my brother next year when he comes. So bloody mafan and the fucking RMIT also cant tell me properly wat to do...end up have to go back there on monday! It took me a bloody 1hour in LV to just change my fucking item. LV here has such a poor SA and they treat the customer like sampah i tell u. So anyways....after much thought of it i decided to change my LV key/coin purse to something else because now that I got the GUCCI coin purse, my LV one just sit there being redundant and only serve the purpose of a key chain now as appose to a coin purse. So called up LV and they say we can exchange the goods within 30days....can u imagine 30DAYS....thats alot...can guna until u sien ady than change it...I didnt know that it exist for such a long period. Usually its about 3-7 working days. So anyways I stood at the store practically bogus of wat to get. I have almost everything there except some of the bags la....So finally I decided to get a Wapity case which fits my blackberry hp and money and house key lip gloss or watever in it...So its a nice replacement of a HP cover haha.....better than the LV key/chain i bought la coz damn redundant....I cant wait for the LV valentine edition to arrived....Its sooo pretty.....

I went to smiggle today to get some folder and some like watever casing to put all the files and book neatly. Its PINK......smiggles is soo good and i know alot of ppl likes it and so do i coz of its wonderful colors they have.

Owh and i went to supre today to get some shirts and my spaghetti top and i saw this which i have to get/....

Cun right....hehe....some more the quality is the supre normal shirt quality.....hehe....Done packing and now i cant wait to be back at MALAYSIA.....

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-Sam-

Me car~

Yes I know you all been bugging me to upload my car picture....So I manage to take some pictures b4 heading down to southbank bvld today to go for house inspection.





Apa macam? Sui bo? Im gonna customize my car plate and change my rims and tint my car and do watever nonsense la which my dad and bro will kaotim when they come down here next year. Oh oh and and...the customize car plate can make into HOT PINK!....giler right...gonna do that when I come back coz it take 14 days time for it to come....But I saw something that caught my eyes yesterday...I saw a x6 bmw and I WANT!.....Maybe might pursuide dad to get it and sell this next year!!......Fingers cross....Its sooo bloody nice the x6....ahhh

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-Sam-

Because I feel like it....

Because I feel like it.......

Today was suppose to just only go settle my house rent and go to uni for some revision. Mana tau after finish paying my rent, I dont feel so good and decided to go home....but than when I pass by collin street, CHANEL keep calling me from afar.....couldnt resist I went it and spoke to my fav SA...she told me that tmw will close for the day and there would be more things coming in so she ask me to come in on thursdays onwards. Sad thing was chanel price for the classic bag has increase about almost aud 1k and its freaking ridiculous...On the bright side, Mum & dad bought me my GST bag @ CHANEL KLCC and I very kan cheong wanna get back to malaysia and use and touch my brand new bag.....Bro webcam wif me that day and he showed and .....ahhhh drools....Cant wait to go home and touch my brand new leather bag.

Today I kena JAMPI or RASUK or watever by two brands......


From CHANEL I menjelajah to Ralph Lauren and got me self a nice shirt and best thing was it just arrive fresh from the oven....and bought 2 shirts for bro. One reason why i bought the shirt because it was......

ITS PINK!!

And I like the detail of the pony at the cuffs....Plus the shirt is soo figure fitting..ahhh

Bought almost about aud 500 bucks there including my bro polo shirts and then off i went into GUCCI.....and and....once again....I KENA JAMP!!!!!!......I bought this, which i couldnt resist at all.

I bought this coin purse which is much roomie than the LV one i bought and plus its a shape of a HEART!! But this is sooo darn cheap its on aud 240...cheap like fuck right, so once again I beli. The LV wan can only put keys and like a keychain for the bag or watever but its not that suitable for a coin purse. So beli this one lor.... The LV one is flat and not so good to put coins but this GUCCI one can put heaps of coins...Me Likey!

With itchy hands I went into LV and Tifanny hopefully something will caught my eye but LV did once again and Im hoping to get that soon b4 i fly back to Malaysia next week and I wanna collect my gst back so its better i buy heaps of stuff now than collecting just one item of gst.

I saw this stunning bracelet from LV and I dunno if I should get it.....the bigger suhali ones is about aud 600 but I plan to get the same one in suhali but in multicolor coz all my bags and everything is multicolor and the smaller multicolor ones is about aud 500....100 buck diff only but I dunno if its worth the money to get it though im very tempted to do so......

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-Sam-

And all I know is......

And all I know is,
You've got to give me everything,
Nothing less coz,
You know I'll give you all of me.

All I wanted was to know Im safe,
Dont want to lose the love I found,
Remember when you said that you will change,
Dont let me down.

I'll give you everything that I am,
Im handling everything that I got,
Coz I really want to have a true love,
Dont ever want to go and give you up,
Stay up till 4 in the morning and the tears are pouring,
And I want to make it worth the fight,
What have we been doing all this time,
Baby if we're gonna do it, do it right.

Take from : Gwen Stefani - 4 in da mornin

I dont ask for much but only your sincerity and your honesty. I only want your true love and nothing more. I want like any ordinary girl would want and ask for. I only want to be love and be apreciated. 2 years is a small time but those are the times that i do not want to let it go to waste. It doesnt matter what has happen but I hope our love is just more than that and more than what it has to offer. I hope you keep your promise to me and show me that you are the one that i fell in love with. I hope to prove to me that all of that was just a mistake and that your promises to me and to the relationship this time is real. I need your love, I need you to make me trust you again, I need you to show me that you really do love me honestly and sincerely.

I love you more than anything in this world, Once last time, Dont fail me now.....

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-Sam-

Take a bow

You look so dumb right now,
Standing outside my house,
Trying to apologize,
Your so ugly when you cry,
Please, just cut it out.

Dont tell me your sorry coz your not,
Baby when I know your only sorry you got caught,

But you put on quite a show,
Really had me going,
Now its time to go,
Curtains finally closing,
That was quite a show, very entertaining,
But its OVER now,
Go on and take a bow.

ITS OVER NOW

Pouring Rain & Lost keys

Today melbourne was pouring rain like cats and dogs.....It was the longest and heaviest rain that I have ever seen since the past 2 years Ive been here. I was damn pissed coz no.1 I was drenched wet and my gucci bag was all wet, my LV shoe I dont have to mention....

So my day went on as usual....Seeing my usual forum and checking my email and today I had to call the car insurance company to get my car insurance done....Once that was done, I called on Chanel to ask my regular SA what was in store....She told me there's no GST...which i was damn sad but there was the JUMBO reissue 2.55.....I was sooo freaking exited and when she told me the price I was even more " chi sin".....I washed up and change and out I went to head to the store....As I was waiting for the lift I called my mum to ask her about her appointment she had today....Soon when I got into the tram......I check my bag and FUCK......I didnt bring my house keys.....Thank god WK got another set of my house keys and I was hoping and praying he did bring it to work with him if not i sure mati seat at the road side until he finish work/.......So I called him and thank god he has it....

So I went into chanel and tengok the bag.....I was exited until I saw the bag....it wasnt the one i wanted...the one i wanted was the extra jumbo reissue 2.55.....dengan sedihnyer I didnt get anything and I went to look for wk to take my keys....

Came home, change myself got ready and then out I go again to LV to collect my coin purse/ key ring that Ive reserve.....Walaupon kecil but nvm la at least got to beli something and it cost me fucking 425 bucks for it....haih.....sometimes i dunno if i kena jampi by LV each time sure saw something I want. Was late to the mazda showroom but very very kind John ( my sales person) waited for me and asist me in all the barangs....then wk came and we pon secara jakun pergi mejelejah melbourne fucking road which i curse and swear....Its sooo difficult and ppl here like to horn....macam kampung babi okay for real bro.....



Went casino also and today not good day....lost 100bucks, derrick lost dunno how much ...haha.....small amount then we went to makan cake....weeee mars bar cake was fucking awesome.


Owh and another thing was....Finalllyyyyyy my alexander mcqueen scarf arrive and now can be nicole richie...wahahah.....was so scared it didnt arrive and finally it did/.....

Ella Ella Eh eh...under my UMBRELLA

Rhianna & Chris Brown concert was a total BLAST.....I think its the best ever concert Ive ever been too and Im still mesmerize by it....It was owesome....

I tot we would be getting seats damn far when I look at our seats number and aisle I was saying " die la die la sure damn fucking far wan and cannot see rihanna boobs and chris brown muscle." But to my amaze Rod Laver Arena is soooo small and its smaller than bukit jalil stadium....so therefore its not far from where we sat. No wonder they have to do 2-3 shows each time celebrities come.

The 2 sampat ppl go see Rihanna...wahahaha

It looks far from this picture but actually if u zoom urself 2x than u get my view

The crowd was overwhelming i tell you

Suddenly the lights went off and there was flashes of chris brown vampire picture...and the screen then goes into countdown...the crowd was already goin nuts and poor wk keep complaining saying the cha bo all shout so loud hahaha.....

Then CHRIS BROWN emerge.......

Below was one picture we took when he sang at a suspended platform and that was how close we saw him!!!!!.....I feel like licking his abs...no wonder rihanna suka him kao lat....ahahaha

Chris Brown sang and sang and all i thought was....THIS IS SURREAL.......

Soon after RIHANNA emerge.....from the top of the stage...she was sooo soooos oooooo beautiful and sooo small and so thin and so perfect...her body is so damn perfect and her waist sooo kecik...omg....she is soooo pretty i tell you.


Anyways the most nicest part was seeing both of them singing together and it was as if we were in an MTV awards seeing them duet keke.....I regret full time i didnt get the ticket during the pre-sale because I could had get the front seats and she would be 10times closer to her and can shake hands some more....Next time I shall buy presale tickets that would be better......

I tried uploading the video here but its just damn slow.....I shall do it on the next post when i upload it on youtube.....

Youknowyouloveme,
Sam

Chanel Crazy, Car Crazy

On friday 31st October 2008. Myself went to chanel store in melbourne. I was eyeing for that GST chanel for a few days now and finally dad agrees to let me get them.I know that they would be a price increase cum 1st November, so I decided to buy it before it increase.

To my disbelief at 530pm chanel was full of people and we had to queue in order to get in...WTF right....Never in my life I have to encounter such nonsense.....but i waited anyways....Soon after derrick arrive and he was shocked as well. In the end we got in after about 10mins wait. As I approach the entrance of the store....I SAW...all the UGLY BAGS thats left. Nothing was on display and only the old old style was there and the usual costume jewelry and sunglasses and purses. But the GST i wanted was GONE/......It sold off the day b4 according to one of the SA there and i was soo dissapointed. As I was looking at other style, nothing seems to caught my eye. Called mum and she said not to be so rush and dont buy something I dont like. So after much look at the store I decided today wasnt my day to get the bag.

I then called the day after that just to see how much the price has increase and they said it hasnt been increase yet and will only do so when new stock arrive. My SA told me that they will only increase about 10% of the style that i wanted and phew....Thank god its not that much and I already pre-order for it...so kinda exited to get it in the next couple of days. But she also told me that new styles will arrive so she ask me not to make any decision until I seen the new ones......

Ini lah bag yang aku mau selama 1 minggu ini

This is another bag that Im eyeing now aswell

On the other hand, I finally bought a car here in MELBOURNE!!......
Was hesitating between a gti golf or a audi Q7 or a CX-7.....Thing is I already put a deposit on the cx-7 but I just got a call from my fren saying that there is a Q5 which is smaller than the 7 and now Im in a dilemma bro.......How.....I really like both cars......and their both in WHITE.....Haih...Buy car also susah buy bag also susah....menyampah! So now tmw event will be go to Audi showroom and if got Q5 and can get by end of this week...I sure take that or else is the CX-7.

Oh well will update soon on that......

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
Sam