New year resolution anyone?

New Year eve is coming.....................

So where is everyone getting drunk that night? or smooching around that night?Whatever the case is, have fun and usher the NEW YEAR with full of laughter and love.

I want to make 2009 a nice year for me.

1. Lose 10 kg. ( i know its too much but i am trying to be stick thin thank you very much)
2. Stop drinking and live a healthy life
3. Do some sort of business ( though i already have one, but i want something out of my field)
4. Be more attentive to my masters subject and no procrastination ( i hope)
5. Start back my singing class and dance classes
6. Collect another 10 bags to add to my 25 bag collection as counted this year
7. Stop cursing ..haha
8. Save more more more money
9. Detoxify myself
10. Learn my make up course

10 things which i hope to satisfy at least 5 of them by the end of this year. Man....2008 just come and go like the wind, it felt like i didnt do anything productive this year except make myself fat.

How bout u? Would love to hear what everyone new year resolution is....Do drop me note k? ;)

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

UPDATES PLEASE

Xmas just come and gone.......
Soon its new year than CNY then im off to melbourne again....haih...time flies when im back in kl.

Anyways...I finally uploaded my pictures on my anniversary and updates on things that i havent been updating.

Things that we bought for each other

Custom made this cupcakes for him

Saw the earing....he gave me....looks like ariel from the little mermaid earing right haha

JonasSam

Another good news.....I finally graduated. It made all the trip back to melbourne worth it aside from moving home. Finally made my daddy and mummy proud. Now can do masters wif the rest of the chi cha gang....muahaha...I miss them btw....


And then after much moving apartment and all, we took mum for cherry & berries picking...She so exited i tell you....haha.....but i was even more exited when i see those strawberries....

Mummy and her cherries haha....She pluck until satu tong full and we were only barely there

Here is me and Mummy at Southbank river on the way back to our apartment.


Will update on the new apartment once everything is fully furnished properly. Coz now we're waiting for the new sofa, bar stool chairs and some other stuff to fill the apartment. So now its kinda....unsettled....lolz....Cant wait to have bbq and invite my frens over to my new home.

Anyways, we came home just in time for xmas. Lucky for me, i did my xmas shopping in melbourne already. Bought mum a dior makeup set and dad a gucci tie. Bought jonas a ralph lauren shirt and daddy bought for him a tommy hilfiger shirt. (sorry no pictures for this coz i lupa to angkat the picture...will post soon)

And the rest of the cousins, friends and relatives, we bought them la senza pj's for the girls, tommy h. tshirt for the boys and toys for the kids.

Darling bought me Forever Friends Teddy bear with a santa hat on the bear. Its like a collectors item and its sooooo nice....soooo cute....He remembered that i like that teddy bear so much. I remembered telling i want that bear and he had to drag me out of the store and i did my boh song face....haha....he bought for me!!.....He told me from now on thats gonna be something he gonna buy for me and collect them with each different meaning when he present it to me but on one condition, i cannot sendiri buy because then it would spoil the whole tradition. So he said, i have to patiently wait for him to buy. Hahaha...good la....something to look forward to then weeee......

Cute boh?

Mum manage to do a small gathering at our home to celebrate the festive season and also to celebrate brother's and uncle jimmy's bday which falls on the 26th and the 25th for uncle jimmy.

Dato' Jimmy & Dato' Simon families

From left to right: Darling, Me, Mum,Dad,Bro, Ruda

Candid photos of Auntie Tengku and Elliah....She is soooo cute i tell u

Me and Elliah....but this photo kesian la.....not that nice.....


Keyna and Elliah.....cayang they both


Will update soon on the photos and other shitty things if i remember la haha.....

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

Merry Christmas

Have yourself a Merry little Xmas.........

Just want to wish all my readers out there....

MERRY XMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL...

Gone my old home, Welcome new home

Hey everyone,

I wonder if anyone still reading my blog. Havent been update for weeks now coz partly Im in melbourne now and last friday I moved apartment. And also I do not have internet access to my new apartment when i moved in coz the previous tenant is so fucking irresponsible to not disconect their internet connection and because of that I have to force a disconnection with telstra on them so i can get mine registered. Somehow i just plug on my modem in my new apartment and walah....I have access to their internet. Strange but true....

Anyways Im already missing my old apartment. There is so much memories there and I somewhat tak sanggup. Its so easy there, hungry just go down makan, wanna yamcha just downstairs...now with my new place everywhere I have to drive....Haih got good and bad la in a way. I saw the advert on the net at real estate.com and when i saw my old apartment being lease I fell so rugi to pindah rumah and i miss that aparment so much. Its just nice for myself to stay and everything just so near.

But my new apartment now is so huge and memang fit for my family. But benci thing is that its so bigggg and i have to clean the house ahhhh tension. But I like my new room. So big and so much space and got space to put my tv in too....Will update pictures soon on my new apartment once all my new furniture arrives.

Finally I graduated and the feeling of 5sec fame was something that cannot be bought. All the hardwork for 4 years paid up well on that graduation night and now i think im certain to endure another 2 more years.

Thats all for my update this time. Will be flying back to kl this sunday.....1 week of hell in melbourne for moving apartment. I didnt know I sendiri 1 person stay can have sooo much stuff. In total i had 20 big boxes and my sofa, tv,dining,study and shits. Now if you ask me to move out from eureka aparment, i think lagi more stuff coz my brother is here next year so lagi banyak nonsense. Im ready to be home at KL now....I windu sangat.

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

Does it matters anymore.

Its 2am now and im sitting in my room thinking of what has happen in my life lately.
Does it matters anymore?

Does it matters anymore when someone you love can lie to you?
Does it matters anymore when the one you used to trust, you dont anymore?
Does it matters anymore when your love is different now?
Does it all matters anymore when you think he is telling the truth but in fact maybe he could be lying?

Love is such a big thing and when someone finally understand what love is, till then when someone understand it, it is when someone is mature and grown up and everything he/she does/do, they will know how the other person would/will feel. Like in the bible says " Above all....love conquers all" Does it even mean anything to you? Well I do. It does conquers all because despite of anything and everything, love itself made me stay with you.

Its been almost a month now and I still cant rub the fact that its already over and I have to let it go.....but i still cant. Each night i sleep i think of you, each morning i wake up i think of you. I think if you are really sleeping when you said you were, I think if you are really working when you said you were, I think if you are really playing your game when you said you were. Nothing satisfy my answers to those questions. It hurts so badly each day.

I hate the idea that i have to be insecure all the time.
I hate the fact that i have to see your phone and be suspicious all the time.
I hate the fact that i have to cry each time i think about it and why your still around.
I hate the fact that she still emails you even if its a forwarded email.
I hate the fact that your soo protective over your email password to be given to me.
I hate the fact that Im in such a pain.

But.....Does it even matters anymore?

Will you feel hurt when you see me hurting?
Will you feel the pain when you see me in pain?
Will you cry when you see me cry?
Will you even bother if im still insecure?

Sometimes I feel you do but sometimes I feel you dont. Instead whenever my fear comes to me, I tell you, you raise your voice and talk to me as if non of it matters to you and you want to shrug it away so that you can pretend it didnt happen.

Or........ is this all a play pretend game your playing on me?

I have never feel so insecure in my life
I have never feel so much pain in my life
I have never feel so stupid in my life

I wonder, will my love ever be the same again? Or will it still be like this. I want to let it go but i cant and you cant even protect me from being hurt once again and you have made me weaker and fragile instead of making me stronger and solid.

On Dec 6th 2008, we celebrated our 2nd anniversary. Everything seems so sureal to me and there i was sitting with you having our dinner we once had before 1 year ago. It felt with happiness and at the same time sadness. I sat there, feeling all of my feelings...good, bad but mostly i feel very hurt. I wish I could tell you that night but I couldnt.

Nothing change at that restaurant. The food, the ambiance, the music was all the same as we both sat there 1 year ago. But what changed was US.

I sat there thinking....what went wrong, what changed us? 1 year ago, i sat at the same restaurant you brought me to for my birthday, and it was the sweetest most amazing night i had and it felt with lots and lots of love from you. I wonder where it all went?

This time it felt as if there is a big hole stopping us from reaching to each other. It felt different, it didnt fill the gap with love this time.

I wish one fine day you would sit down and tell me whats going on and what are you thinking. I couldnt read your expression anymore and each time it felt as if im in a circus, seeing all this clowns portraing not themself,but painting their expression over a mask on their face. Its not the same anymore.

What do you see when you think of me?
What do you feel when you think of me?

It felt very meaningless with you nowadays. You have no love nor expression when your with me. You have never been like this 1 year ago. You will always talk to me nonstop over serious or even jokes. You will show me you loved me in every little way you do.

Or maybe........

Things just have changed among us.

Moving madness

I cant believe it....its been only 3 weeks since i came back and now i have to go back to fucking melbourne again to move apartment.

Though is exiting coz i finally got the apartment i wanted and move and get new things, but to fly there is dreading me!! Mum and I have been busy this 2 days with connecting electricity and calling the movers. But good thing is that this movers they kaotim everything for us including getting the council paper, booking the goods lift for both QV and Eureka Tower and packing heavy furniture aswell. So that one is no issue.

Next is to transfer my telstra and bigpond account to the new apartment and get foxtel aswell. Than its just the matter of waiting everything to connect and be up and running. Most important is my internet and my house phone, if not life would be lifeless in melbourne.

Fucking brother is making a big fuss about going to melbourne for a bloody fucking week okay. Just because his fucking gf is here and he has to go to melbourne to get all of that done. I tell you is damn fucking annoying and fucking selfish okay. Its his home aswell and he's making as if its not his house and making an issue that he's leaving his gf for ONE FUCKING WEEK. He thank god that his uni doesnt start like soon or else sure jump off the building. I seriously dont get him, he thinks the whole world owes him and I do not need to even start on complaining about his pathetic immature GF of his.....ARGHHHHH bloody pissing off....Padan muka that he's leaving her to study......

Anyways.....I wanna shop and I cant wait to shop in melbourne because everything is cheaper there now.

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-

Chanel Jelly Slippers

Hey everyone,

Things been pretty fine lately...nothing alarming. Doctor said that I do not need to be on lifetime medication, just need to supress my hormones to make it balance again.

Finally I manage to upload pictures of my CHANEL BAG- The grand shopping tote bag....ekekekekeke......The one I was dying to buy and waited sooo long in melbourne and finally bought it in KL coz melbourne no stock. But anyways....I saw another chanel bag that i love......haih....Chanel is making me bonkers/......


Nice?? Best thing is it can fit my notebook so im damn happy with the size and this will be another of my school bag collection muahahahaha.....Luckily i bought it in black if white sure habis kotor like my LV ursula bag.

Moving on......

I finally bought my CHANEL JELLY THONG.....The SA told me it was RM1070 but than when dad paid it it was only RM950.....I wonder why......Maybe salah i guess....but since is so eiffing cheap...im thinking to get another one coz its soooo comfortable....Me LIKEY!!


Went to Velvet last night and it was so nice.....They renovated the place and it looks soooo Pussycatdoll-ish......With heart shape doors and heart shape door locks and the chairs aswell look like heartshape and the DJ area has this niceeee heartshape piece on the wall.....Its really classic and it feels as if I was at a Pussycatdoll room....hehe....Went with Bf and his frens and my bestie Aimee....boy i tell you...she is the one person i know that dares to cut her hair soooo short...But i think she pull it off quite nice......Pixie Aimee


Owh and wanna show you the dress that Bf bought for me for his friend wedding. But i warn you, I look damn pregnant in this picture.

YouKnowYouLoveMe,
-SAM-