Home sweet home

HOME SWEET HOME!

I get all exited when I see my pink walls, my pink bag cabinet and my pink colorful bed spread.....

It makes me feels so much at home.

But on the other...there is another home that Im missing now.....

A home that Im slowly creating with boyfriend back in Melbourne.

Will be back only for 10days so Im gonna shop till i drop...buy stuff for boyfriend and myself...and spend quality time wif the people that I love here in Malaysia.

I miss this princess a whole lot....She's now comfortably at boyfriend place :)

Tmw myself and my adik angkat is gonna go to this tutti fruitti stall in bangsar..Apparently it sells yogurts or some sort. Malaysia is being as HOT as ever and technically I used to miss Malaysia so much but now Im so used to Melbourne/....I think maybe finally I shall call Melbourne Home aswell. Yes you heard it from me. I guess the culture here and there is totally different and Ive adapted the angmo culture that whever I go here in Malaysia I feel odd....I speak Malay so cacat this few days and Im so sick of the HOT weather. But no matter how Malaysia will always be my MAIN home.

Foods good, friends are here, families are here but there is just one more person Im missing the most right now~~~~

This boy here!

I miss him so much its not funny!!......

Good thing that it makes us miss each other so much but the bad thing is...we are so sticky and dependent on each other now....haha....I guess well....I think its not bad...i take back my words.....

On the other hand....tmw Im gonna go shopping and first things first....CHANEL....!!

Boyfriend bought me necklace and earing....So I shall c what else Im gonna add to my collection...Mum was damn happy i bought her the chanel flaps and now we both have the same flaps but in different color...I have pink and black now wee wee~~~. I wonder what color they have it here...i hope no more camilie chanel flaps...or else i cant help but to buy them again and keep them haha swt!

Till then,

-S-

Perfection and appreciation

Hello people

Yes Im still alive after much nonsense have been going on for the past 2 weeks.

Firstly, My finals for all my journals was rush within 24 hours before submission.

Ive never write so much in my entire life...write until fingers also blister and i only slept like an hour. Am so proud at myself at how I can still go on with mind blank. haha....

Other than tht shit has been happening on the bf side. 

Rules to have a perfect relationship :

 Never let the siblings get into your head

Bf must be strong enuff to ask them to shut up

Never try to be nice to people anymore.

The fact is, Ive always put on my best impression for people and sometimes not all people appreciate it at all. Might aswell dont need to put any effort for those who doesnt appreciate you nor gave you the chance to meet you. So dont need waste any of those time instead use those time to do something you like. After what has happen Ive soon realise to be selfish and dont need to put on any effort because your not appreciated by them.

Other than that, Im going back to Malaysia soon weeeee~~~ But bf is being sad. It would be our first time apart since we got together and Im still struggling haha. Im sure 2 weeks past on very fast.......

Now Im so relax...I can sleep anytime I want....do watever i want to do and chill as long as i can....until end of july that is.....FINALS FINALS FINALS.....EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS.....ESSAY ESSAY ESSAY.

I know its like 2 month from now...bt i damn kan cheong....I dun want to lose...I want to win and get it done and over with. Luckily I have zha bo with me....So blessed to have her in my life haha.

Anyways will update soon.

YouKnowYouLoveMe,

-S-

FINALS

FINALS IS HERE..................
Part of me cant wait till its over...and part of me is dreading the time and the endless of work have to be done.
Having an ernourmous cramp on my left side and its been like tht for a week now..damn u so pain!!. Other than tht been busy trying very hard to do work instead of enjoying and etc...
Still contemplating to go back on the 24th of june or on the 1st of july. Either way im not tht exited to go back.....Owh and.....I want to change my blog layout. Anyone care to help me? haha

xoxo,

-S-

Big things todo

Hello beloved readers,

Or maybe none at all after all since its been ages since Ive blogged anything.
Major reason was being madly in love and another part is busy with uni and going mad on weekends with the bunch.

I was thinking todo a major project after my semester is done : -
I plan to redecorate my room (which Ive been planning to do for the past 1 year)
D.I.E.T! ( another failed one since Ive got B with me).
Singing lessons ( which I plan todo for the past 3 years now).

My dieting is killing me. I was fine for the past 4 months ago before flying back to melbourne and now...it has FAIL yes big F.A.I.L!.....After this week....Im going to diet and no one is going to stop me i tell u!!.

Other thing that happen is.....I cant stop talking about the boyfriend....He's adorable, he's such a sweetheart, he's such an arse for making me laugh all the time and I have never been so happy in my entire life. Each day passes by like months and funny thing is....we think alike on almost anything and its scary but I love it.....So for the next few entries Im going to blog is about the stuff that i will buy to decorate my room ( yes, im planning todo my room hence today!) and my attempt to DIET once again...I cant stand it anymore....IM FAT...haha yes Ive said it and Im not shy....!Anyho....Im gonna head to bed....the boyfriend is snoring again.... xoxo.

Btw, Ive dye my hair...wee hee...:)

YouKnowYouLoveMe,

-S-

Decisions and changes

Its been the longest of time since Ive updated my blog.

Lets see...been busy falling in love, been busy wif assignments, been busy wif uni, been busy wif friends

When I sit and think of everything that has happen. I get amazed at how life is

One minute you know your destine to do this, than out of the sudden middle of no where,

It vanishes and changed your plan just like that.

I used to think that this year would be my last year here in melbourne

But than suddenly someone came into my life and immediately this becomes my home now.

Evrything I had planned for now is different and I know my parents are damn happy about me being here in melbourne permenantely.

To be honest i still cant c myself staying here and making a living and starting a family here.

Never in my wildest dreams or thinking. I guess people do change and things change for many reasons.

But Im not complaining...I found him....I need him more than anything else in the world :)

-S-

Lucky Im in love with my bestfriend

Easter came and gone like the wind...
And now I can feel the stress and assingments pilling up like hills....
Bad enuff got this shit going on...Im starting to fall sick...Every single time....finals sure one of the time i get fever or flu or cough haih sien.....
But this time around easter was a moment tht I will remember for the rest of my life.

All this while, He was standing in front of me....So near yet so far.
I have no said a thing neither did he....
I guess all this while we thought we couldnt get pass through the idea of us being together because we are such good good friends and we care for each other so much to hurt each other.
Little did I know when we didnt talk for 3 years...he was always concern about me and find out little things about me whenever he could. I wish we didnt had to waste those 3 years...
But maybe because of tht we went our seperate ways to learn about life and to grow up maturely and when we meet....its just fall into place. And it really it...if it was 3 years back , you ask me to be wif him...i dont think he suits me and he would think the same too about me....But we've grown so much and mature so much that I think its right for us to be together....
No doubt in this 7 years being friends...I find similarities between us but I never thought we are SOOO SIMILIAR in sooo many ways....I guess like people say....its better to start of as friends only to be couples so tht we understand each other better and we would know if we suited together.

It is such a blessing in disguise to have him honestly...
I thought I couldnt break the fact that I like him only as friends....
And I know many of you knows tht my heart is hard to get it....

Well....He did....He broke those walls I built....he broke me and made me love him unconditionally....He manage to stole my heart away....I hope he loves me unconditionally too.....

I will never in this world hurt him and I hope he does too...
I hope for once Im right and tht he is the one tht ive been waiting for all of my life.

YouknowYouLoveMe,

-S-

:)

Another exiting news,

As of 3 of April 2010

Im officially someone's gf!!

Love magic

Sometimes when i think about it.

Am I considered lucky or it if just meant to be.

We've known each other 7 years and finally out of no where, we're together.

Its wonderful how life and love works in mysterious way tht no one can explain the magic to it.

I hope this time he's the one :)

YouKnowYouLoveMe,

-S-

I suck

LONG OVERDUE AGAIN~
I dont know why each time when Im back in melbourne or somewhat....I totally forget to blog.
I dont know how some people have so much time in a day to blog every single detail about their life.
I tried doing it but I cant lor....I dont even have time to take a proper sleep let alone blog.
But some people can lor....why ah? Maybe tooooo free??? Or internet addict?

Its so mafan....one is type second is upload pictures...in kl lagi worst la...takes time to upload pictures coz of the internet speed.

Anyways enuff of bising.....easters coming...so hopefully by then I will be able to blog alog....hahaha...

-S-

Married, babies and a whole lot more

I cant stand it....
Everyone I know or heard off are either getting married, getting engage or having a baby.
When is it my turn???? goodnessss sobs

-S-

Pushing

Even now tht your mine.

Yet your not the one I could talk too.

You always push me aside.

I cant even pour out things or tell you wat is my mind thinking.

All I get is rejection and rejection and then I have to oblige.

If not you will get pissed at me and dont want to talk to me.

So in the end...I just oblige to you and stop telling you things.

Sooner or later, I would be like a fake doll tht only can listen but cant speak

Busy Bee

Ive been uberly tired and no time to blog ever since I came back to melbourne.....

So much things have been going on and its driving me nuts.
Birthdays, assignment, personal matters....waaaaa my head gonna burst de la......I kenot take it hhaa....

Bored

I'm testing my iPhone blog....haha i wonder if it work haha xoxo Sam


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I miss you.
Yes I do.....
I hate it when I wake up alone each morning....
Cant wait to see you in june....:)

Stupid classes

Class started today and already I feel sooo damn DULAN about it....
I do not know how am I gonna survive this sem...omg...im sooo sooo soooo lazy!!
Anyways hopefully zha bo and me can be in the same class for design....
Bloody melbourne weather is making me sick again.....FOREVER LIKE THIS....
Update ya'll tmw.....
Nytessss

-S-

All I can do

Ive been trying and trying

But how come things still feel the same?

Is it really me or is things just feel complicated?

Ive spend nights thinking about it and to be honest, it felt like strangers

It felt like we're living in 2 different world.

It no longer felt like we're as one.

I wanna scream and shout.....but all I can do is just sit there and wait

Awaiting for that very moment.

-S-

Bruise ankle anyone?

Its been such a tiring day today.
Firstly went to St Michael Grammer school in chapel street coz my cousin wants to change her school there.
Its so nice compare to Msia school....Namely because the subjects.
They had the main subjects like maths english and such and then students get to picked out 3 more classes of their interest in different fields.

What caught my eyes was Music and production, drama, and everything else that's got to do with Performing arts. Immediately I missed school and if I were to be given a chance...I would be such a happy kid with those subjects hehe...Anyways I had an accident today and I almost yes...almost....banged someone car and it was a C class....haih....That idiot just jam break all of the sudden when I was shifting my lane to the right and with that I jam break and shift to a corner and the passenger side was 1cm close to the C class bumper. I got stunt and my legs went numb. Luckily there wasnt cars behind tht followed me if not sure habis one whole lane. Came home after that only to realise tht my ankle got twisted...Must have been me breaking or somewhat Im not sure...bt its becoming worst....My ankle seems bruise and pain and I cant walk properly. Stupid driver...!

Bathed Melody today and my my she smells nice now....She's grown so so big and somehow...Im not like any religious blogger who post pictures at every post....Im lazy haha....will show you Melody when I have the time to upload on my laptop haha. Other than tht, my dad cousin came with his family and tmw morning gonna bring them to eat breakfast...blerh....Im so lazy...I wonder if I can wake up ahaha.

Hope tmw my ankle would feel much better.....damn damn damn.....i wanna go shopping tmw also cannot....leg fucked up like this...haih...

Anyways off to bed now....Silly J havent called me yet...I wonder if he's already home....Missing J already.

-S-

!

Is it me?

Am I being too sensitive?

I do not know anymore

I need you

How come it feels like Im the only one in love.
Im so afraid of saying or telling him things in case he might think im being persistent.
Sigh.....
It felt he din care as he used to nor he wants to show tht he cares.
I feel alone.
Is it too soon to judge? Do he still really miss me now tht Im far away?

.......................................................................I miss him very much.
I miss how he used to call me each morning he awakes & how each night he calls me to chat & say goodnite
I miss how he is mad when I dont call or text him even how busy I am
I miss how his voice sound like whenever i call him
I miss how he says "Hi darling" in those exited manner.
I really miss all of tht very much and most importantly I miss him very very much.
I wonder if he miss doing all those to me?

Melbourne Melbored

Hello Melbourne,

Did you miss me? I sure hell I didnt miss you hahaha......
Yes people Im home in d land of bloody ang mo country. I only miss the weather here haha.
Just finish unpacked, bath and eat....now im doozing off before my four legged daughter will be home and i wont have time to rest....
Missing someone already :(

-S-